I was 24, and a mother of three when I officially learned one of life’s great lessons. Do not to put raw eggs into your coat pocket. I was new at this “farm girl” thing, but I quickly realized that it was a bad idea as soon as I dropped the fifth egg in and heard that dreaded cracking sound. My husband's yellow rain coat, and two less eggs for the carton. That day I also learned not to leave the lid off the goat feed, especially when rain clouds are on the horizon, and then I learned that I need to shut the barn yard gate just a little faster. There I was trying to pull a stubborn goat out of a garbage can full of wet feed with eggs in my pocket.
I was 21 when I found out I was expecting my first child, and I was simply amazed. A new life was growing inside of me and I knew that somehow, after nine months, a new little person would arrive just in time for our first wedding anniversary. Surprise! We had thought we would wait a while before starting a family, but we are very happy that things didn't go as planned!
My family moved into a house on Bethune Beach, FL when I was 17. I would often walk along the ocean’s edge for hours at a time, collecting shells while pondering all the big questions in life. My footprints would capture a puddle of water behind me, and reflect all the colors sky. Then the next wave would come and my footprints would be gone, forever. Yet, as long as I kept walking I was always making more footprints. As I walked along I knew I wasn’t really alone. I knew that my Maker, the creator of the heavens and the earth would join me on those walks. He enjoyed those days as much as I did. I wonder if He misses those days too.
We had just moved to a new school district, it was supposed to be one of the “better” schools. I had gone to small town schools before this one, but this middle school was frightening. I remember being grabbed and teased by the boys, I remember the tattoo parlor in the girl’s bathroom, with razors and permanent marker. I remember being offered a “good” deal on any kind of drug I’d like to try out, while waiting in the lunch line. There were four pregnant girls in my middle school. And I’d often get lost in the maze of halls and stairways between classes. I guess this is somewhat normal, that was back in the early 1990’s.
I'm here thinking of you On this Tuesday afternoon You took the early morning train I wanted to go with you But there was so much to do Now I'm caught out in the rain
Is it raining where you are? How long until you come home? This city is a lonely place without you.
Splashing through puddles Cars, bikes and busses rush by My feet are wet, but the summer rain is warm All my thoughts seem muddled Everyone is in their own world This city is a lonely place without you near
Waiting for the phone to ring Searching for a song to sing I'm waiting in the station a shelter from the rain I should have gone with you today My to-do list can wait Night falls and I'm still waiting for your train.
Is it raining where you are? Did you catch the late night train? This city is a lonely place without you.